Things are changing around here. I can feel it (literally) both internally and externally. It's in the little things--like Jonah eating his snack at the table like a big boy--and it's exciting, because it reminds me on a daily basis that I can't get too attached to any one thing, because before you know it, it's over and we're on to the next thing. Lately I've been trying to hold on to an attitude of gratitude to remember how blessed I am to spend so much time with a little person who grows and changes every day. And how exciting (not scary, not scary) it will be to have two and not just one!
This time of year and its impending coldness and darkness is always a difficult time for me. I would spend all winter in bed (if I could) hiding from the cold, so it takes a lot of mindful effort for me to keep moving, stay motivated and get anything at all done. But in a mysterious way, as my energy ebbs and flows these days I find myself getting inspired and settling even more into this life of motherhood. It's like I'm finally getting my head and heart around the idea that this is my life. Not something temporary or some project I have to manage, but my one and only life, and I better getting cracking at making it the best one it can be! I keep wondering how long it will be (and how old my children will be) before I can fully embrace my claim as a mama, and how much longer still it will be before I can claim any small level of mastery in this arena. Any moms out there wanna fill me in on that one? :)
I hope that you too can find some growth this winter, in a contemplative, slow and steady kinda way. That way, when Spring comes, we can all be ready to bust out of our hibernation-mode, pushing past anything that stands in our way, ready to take on the world.



